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| Date: | 2006-02-06 09:57 |
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| Date: | 2006-02-02 12:00 |
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| Mood: |  contemplative | | Music: | jimmy eat world |
ok, now that you all know that im a badass, i feel i should update you on whats been going on in my life...
Personal issues have been abundant this winter, as they usually are. Winter just isnt my season. Everything dies. Everything ends. I have technically been single for almost 2 months, but untill very recently i have not really embraced it. And im still having trouble. But im hopefull. And im going to try to do some thing that will make me feel better: join a gym, save more money, go out less. I really need to start acting like the adult that i say i am. I just feel like being 25 is the strange transition period...kinda like 15 and 16 was. Its awkward, and uncomfortable at times. I feel this pull to be more reserved, drink less, go out less, do fewer bad things. And i also feel this pull to savor my youth and be crazy. But whether i like it or not, its just getting harder and harder to do the crazy things, while balencing a normal 8-5 life. Its hard to explain. Im just starting to want nicer things...like a nice couch, and wanting to go on nice vacations, ect. and you cant do that when you are spending all your money on stupid shit. Now, i dont make that much money. And I always get by somehow...but im just tired of being broke at the end of a month becuase i spend my last 10 dollars on wine. haha. anyway, im rambling.
this winter has sucked ass.
here's hoping the spring time brings good things.
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| Date: | 2006-01-09 08:56 |
| Subject: | some summing up |
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| Mood: |  distressed | | Music: | frank |
I need to do some recapping. And since I never actually write in my journal (you know, they used to come with paper), i figure ill avoid work and do it in here. it is called livejournal...shit, i should be journaling it more often.
So, the end of 2005 was pretty shitty, much the same as the end of 2004. Both years ending with me losing a boyfriend over the most stupid excusses i have ever heard a man give. "i dont know why i cant be with you, your perfect, i love you, but i just cant do this right now" (WTF?) I wish i had a decoder that would tell me what men actually mean by that. im sure its something like this: "I love you and want to be with you, but there are these other girls that I want to fuck, so, right now, i cant be tied down." Which is fine...BUT FUCKING SAY IT ALREADY! So, yeah. This year it was Moe...who im sure most of you remember. Found out that i had been a fool for quite some time before our relationhips actually ended. Its never fun finding out that you were a fool. And its not that often in my life that i have felt this way. I mean, i like to think of myself as a pretty perceptive person...but to be so decieved, its a bit shocking. Makes me really question my judgement of people. I through this, I have discovered that my intstincts are kinda faulty. Because I really dont want the end of 2006 to end this way...3 years in a row, i just dont think i could handle it.
And this just sucks...is this my offical induction into the jaded and bitter world of middle aged women? fucking a. i dont want to be the jealous, untrusting bitch that cant get her shit together because she's "been hurt so many times in the past". bleh. fuck that. But part of me feels that way, because i have watched some of my favorite people in the world, that i love dearly; people that when i met them were sweet and kind and sensitive, and fucking nice...and i watch them turn into these selfish, mean, uncaring people. Maybe thats a bit dramatic. But fuck. Could i just meet a person that not planning on having some kind of pre mid life fucking crisis in the next year!
anyway. moe sucks. Im sure eventually we will be friends. but, right now. i hope he gets herpes. ha.
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| Date: | 2005-12-19 17:02 |
| Subject: | forlorn |
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| Mood: |  melancholy | | Music: | dnb |
life still kinda sucks. i have my good days and bad days. Today is a bad one. It sucks to miss someone so much. any thoughts on how to fill my time?
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Another relationship over. Im so sad, so disapointed.
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| Date: | 2005-10-31 09:22 |
| Subject: | hehe. |
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| Mood: |  amused |
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) eighty6lovelush's Halloween party:
angelspaztic dressed as Anna Kournikova's grandfather.
beeryce dressed as Tiffani-AmberThiessen.
corrosive didn't dress up, spoilsport.
dani0425 dressed as a vampire.
derrtymack dressed as Andrew Jackson.
homeys_dotcom gets drunk, strips naked, and somehow emerges dressed as the love child of Al Gore and Queen Elizabeth.
johnnyvega dressed as a pirate.
matchgirl dressed as a horny goblin.
mikeypayload dressed as a character from Harry Potter and the Anvil of Power.
wednesday1483 dressed as something black, but what, specifically, you can't tell, though it looked more like a bottle of Quadrietra.
xdeadreckoningx dressed as Optimus Prime.
xsyntricity dressed as Mary-Kate Olsen with her very own conjoined Ashley.
Throw your own party at the Hallomeme!
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ok, i asked on myspace too...but you all gots any ideas for a holloween costume? rules: im broke and i dont paint my face. :)
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| Date: | 2005-10-20 11:53 |
| Subject: | pimptastic |
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| Your Pimp Name Is... | 
Luscious Shagswell |
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| Date: | 2005-10-20 11:50 |
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| Mood: | contemplative |
just keep me far, far, far away from that scientolgy bull shit
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Your ideals mostly resemble that of a Humanist. Although you do not have a lot of faith, you are devoted to making this world better, in the short time that you have to live. Humanists do not generally believe in an afterlife, and therefore, are committed to making the world a better place for themselves and future generations.
20% spiritual.
80% reason-oriented.
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| Date: | 2005-10-17 16:27 |
| Subject: | bluez |
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| Mood: |  guilty | | Music: | ben kweller |
I really need to learn how to do math. maybe I should take another math class just to freshen up on the subject. Because my bank account suffered a major blow this month due to my stupidity. I woke up this morning and looked at my account, and I have an amazing .12 cents. Mind you, i dont get paid till the first of nov. :(
So, what do I have: 10 cigs, coffee, beans, ramen...and unpaid electric bill.
Im so stupid. I cant believe I did this.
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| Date: | 2005-10-12 14:05 |
| Subject: | hehe |
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| Mood: |  cranky | | Music: | nope |
ARRRRRRRR!
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| Date: | 2005-10-06 16:39 |
| Subject: | poo |
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| Mood: | thoughtful | | Music: | nothing! |
poo on cold weather
poo on snow
poo on sweaters
poo on socks
poo on bad road conditions
poo on it being dark at 8am and 5pm
poo on staying in all the time
poo on no more ice cream
poo on fall cuz fall leads to winter...
on the other hand:
yay for heaters!
yay for snowmen!
yay for cute scarves!
yay for cute beenies!
yay for having an excusse not to drive to lawton!
yay for long,warm nights with my signifigant other!
yay for watching movies insteed of going out!
yay for hot chocolate!
and yay for CUDDLING!!
So, i guess fall isnt all that bad. It sure does smell nice. ;)
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LJ Interests meme results
- bennies:
The things you put on your head to keep warm! I have many! - charlotte:
One of the greatest people ever! - cory:
Another awesome friend. - driving around all night:
back when I couldnt get into bars, this was just as good. - hello kitty:
HELLO!!! This one is a given - kate:
Sister of Charlotte, very smart, cool chica - my imac computer:
oooo...its already 3 years old and it still looks high tech - raves:
sigh. I call them "parties" now. - sitting on the porch:
My favorite place to drink wine with the moom! - walmart cookies:
I need to delet these...I never get them anymore...or maybe! I should go out and buy some...they are so evil!
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If you could fight anyone, who would it be? Avril Lavine (somewhere, somehow, this will happen!)
If you could see any two people fight...? i dont like people fighting, but if I had to choose, definatly my X boyfriend and a huge, strong, evil, guy that would slowly torture and hurt him. (hehe)
If you could remix any song, what would it be? Fleetwood Mac - Tell Me Lies
What is the most obscure sexual position you know of? i dont know the names of these things...
That you have ever attempted...? see above.
If you wrote one, what would be the title of your autobiography? Sophia.
If there was a storm named after you, where would it land? lawton.
What is the best album cover of all time? who cares? i lost all the covers of all my albums.
What is your blood type? O-
Do you know what that means? im the universal donor, which means my blood is useful to EVERYONE, but I can only take blood from other people with O-, seems a bit unfair, eh? Yeah, i dont donate!
Who makes more money than they should? Actors/Singers
Why aren't you one? Good question. cuz im too fat.
Who should make the most money? Teachers, doctors, and scientists (i have to agree with dan here.)
What is your favorite number? 11
Second favorite? 13
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| Date: | 2005-08-29 11:23 |
| Subject: | lame... |
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| Mood: |  hungry | | Music: | Ezee Tiger |
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| Date: | 2005-08-23 11:04 |
| Subject: | fucked up shit. |
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| Mood: | angry | | Music: | dnb |
ok, this fucking sucks. Just wanted to spread the word on this. riot cops bust rave in Utah. this makes me sick.
http://homepage.mac.com/apexgrin/FileSharing2.html <--------the footage.
http://dailykos.com/story/2005/8/22/13030/7546 <--------- evol intent's account of the events.
http://www.sltrib.com/utah/ci_2961967 <------ their side of the story (the salt lake city press)
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| Date: | 2005-08-17 14:54 |
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| Mood: |  grumpy | | Music: | communique - evaporate |
ok. i have been living in the city for about 2 months now. joy. or should I say...joy? Its nice to be on my own, paying my own bills, buying my own groceries, blah blah blah. I like it, i really do. I acomplished many goals in the last year. and of that, i am proud. I just feel like I worked really hard, and still do to keep it up...and for some reason it feels like my quality of life just keeps going down. Whats up with that? Is that what getting old is? Getting old = the ablity to spend most of your time by yourself. ick. This is the part about my present state that is bugging me. I miss my friends. And im not going to sit here and bitch about how the good times are gone, and all that shit. I am just wondering, in this new world where all my coworkers are over 40 and there are no classes to go to and meet people, how is it that you aquire a new group of friends to start having fun with NOW? Do I join a club? What? I have been told to get a hobby, and all that is fine and dandy...but its not what I miss. I miss having a friend to call if im bored. I miss being invited out to dinner for special occations. I miss spur of the moment parties. I miss just having people around that knew me. And its not like I dont do things...its just that I always do them with "someone else's friends" that hardly know me. And this satisfies only a part of what i feel is so lacking. humphf. I know most of the people on my friends list are too young to understand any of this...and probably think im being a whinny bitch, but growing up is loney...especially when you are used to such outstanding friends. At least, thats what is has been lately.
I know that the past is the past. but the future is looking pretty bleak without a support group...that exsits within a 20 mile radius. I know that i still have my friends...charlotte, keely, chris, john, the norman crew, cliff, cory, q, serena, etc. but save keely...not one of you is close enough to see on the spur of the moment. ehhh...i guess this is just a time of transition. Im sure I will find some people to get to know sooner or later. sooner than later, i hope. As for this entry...sorry. im just feeling a bit bleh. if anyone has any advice that isnt: read a book, get a hobby, start working out, ect.(not things that fix the problem, trust me I have tried((working out has proven to benifit in other ways though!)) ) please feel free to respond.
:) ick.
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| Date: | 2005-08-16 10:11 |
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| Mood: |  weird | | Music: | nothing! |
1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie/book/fictional character reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of pudding or soft cheese to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me. Or at least me.
5. I'll tell you my favorite memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal or plant you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written.
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